Cycle of struggles

Recently, I've been disappointed on myself. Not being able to get the grades I want and feeling like I'm not good enough. I crave to pass every subject so I wouldn't disappoint my parents. I've been so caught up with things that I had less time for my studies. I'm the kind of person who gets easily distracted. Once I catch your attention, I'll drop all my things and focus on that instead. I tend to cram too. I'd always extend my time to 5 mins to 10 mins and so on and so forth until I don't get things done on time and tell myself to do it tomorrow instead. I regret procrastinating 'cause if I didn't maybe I would've gotten the scores I wanted. College has been so stressful for me as the profs give so much homework and requirements. My upper batch friends were right, college ain't no joke. I realized that it was time for me to take things seriously and compromise to the time I set for my studies so I wouldn't have to feel depressed about it. The cycle goes on and you have no one to blame but yourself. Your biggest enemy is yourself. The problem with me is, I don't take things seriously. I'm a happy-go-lucky type of girl. I'm eighteen now and I should now what to prioritize and not. I pray to God that I could change a better version of myself. Not only have I disappointed myself but also the ones who expected so much more from me. I wish I had the chance to go back in time and change the mistakes I made but those mistakes make us who we are now. It's all depending on your decision.